In My Mind

In every search for reality, for truth and honesty; there is always an accompanying doubt behind. It can never be so apparent, evident and plain yet quite perceptible. It could bring a very hollow feeling, so sad delusions that in time you will know what lies beyond. However, this hope could just wane if you are too much concealed with what are just exposed. Seeing is also believing, hearing is something and feeling is everything. It would not keep you from being too overwhelmed yet it designs so much uncertainty that often leads to blindness. You know in yourself that there can never be unison but still a kindle of hope is lighted that brings flames of contentment. It is a matter of acceptance and that you will be held captivated by just a shadow of your wholeness so preserved for a beloved. It is the thought of nothing is real; everything is just moving around in circles, no directions, and will just pop like bubbles. 

Living a simple life and achieving simple dreams are the most fulfilling jobs in the world. These may not yield similar fantasies with what others are experiencing in life yet you know that a normal way of living, like gazing stars up there wishing someone is listening to a heart speak is like heaven. Every little drop of rain brings so much pleasure in you accompanied by drizzles of encouragement of your surroundings. God’s creations are bliss whispering winds telling stories through a language of love. A nature of someone to feel so concerned with somebody is indeed a true wonderful gift from Jesus Christ. It is so amazing if you get tangled with what life brings such that it no longer matter how sorrowful your life would be. A thought of making someone happy, with own simple ways is a great achievement one cannot exchange for any material things. The love you bestowed which is returned would also be one of those cherished moments captured in life’s dazzled photography. Everyone is dreaming, weaving memories in mind may it be sad or happy and rumpling pieces of learning as it takes away to newer horizons. 

Loving is life. It needs to get nurtured, nourished, cultured, and molded into certain delineations through spice of surprises. Whilst it may be so unpredictable when feelings is to talk about, still it is so certain that we can manipulate how to bend with. Just so learning to accept how things are presented indirectly should be thy carried manner. Wishing and hoping someday, everything will be laid clear without doubts, confusions and wondering. Time is boundless to a listening heart, concerned mind and thoughtful souls humming the songs of life.

-smiles :) 




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When I Was Away

* hearing her voice..


* seeing her so lovely face..
(oh GOD she’s really cute)


* listening to her song with
such a pleasant-sounding 
symphony coming from her talented voice..


* capturing the eloquence
when reading her educational 
story books.. i admit her articulacy is far more better 
than mine.


* hearing her simple prayers,
full of love, hope, and care..


* listening to how she
explains her stories about everyday 
activities..


* seeing her laughters, cries,
anger, sadness, and excitement 
when she hears/sees me on Skype..


* hearing her “po” and “opo”
when she speaks/talks ~ so 
polite dear one..


* i love to see how she
giggles with such happiness while 
waiting for her package to arrive anytime
soon..


* i am so touched to hear her
saying she’s always praying 
for me and always thinking how i am doing everday..


nothing more than these..
everything is so wonderfully 
crafted and although I am considered underprivileged, 
my riches come from these simple things money definitely 
can’t buy.. I am so
blessed by the LORD JESUS CHRIST!! 
Thank you LORD.

하트~

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If you talk to a man in a language he understands, that goes to his head.

If you talk to him in his own language, that goes to his heart.

‒quotes by Nelson Mandela

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When you fall in love with what God is making you, then you

don`t have to worry about where He`s taking you..


A Letter Of A Happy Bruised Heart

Reminiscing stories.. 

I'm not sure how long I've been feeling this way, but it seems that each day that passes is a day that I am even more tired of everyone and everything that reminds me of you. I wish I could be with you someday. Hours seem so long lasting. They drown me inside in ways that you could never imagine. I try dreaming of you but that’s bad on my part to conceive such impish things in my mind. It is just not appropriate and not good for a child of God. I should be just content of what I have and the enclosed self within me. There is so much to tell you that I could not convey because of the lack of courage and to add a dilemma of having language barrier, I supposed. And while in this infinite abyss we wait for the day in which we can just escape.. to you. 

I can’t stand this storm inside me. The city seems to be deserted just by my hard pounding thoughts. Weird people run without stopping, at my back are this intense universe that can’t seem to stop. Days seem grey. Everything seems mute while I cry because of stupid reasons that just make me angrier inside. It’s weird but I’m mad for letting myself fall for you, even though you did not warn me nor did anything to show love. How could you do this to me? I've tried to be a good friend to you but it seemed all pointless because you were just dumb, so helpless me and I do not have anyone to turn to right now. All are just uttered to the sky and letting God hear my heart cries, summoning to release the pain and the prolonged agony inside. 

I have evidences of SMS and chat messages about what you feel for me and I am so much holding on to it. These are my pillar of strength while Jesus is at the other end of my life’s rope. I wouldn't mind which ones are real or false truths. It is like happiness but soaked in desperation and loneliness. Too much of incompetent notions but the heart feels and instincts add to it. It is I think a simple gesture of “I’m about to screw you over big time honey!”. How pitiful of me then to receive such acts where all I showed was kindness and love. And what was I supposed to do? I was stuck in between you and a hard place, we won't talk about the hard place. You don't have an idea about this feeling, and yes you do.

But I don't blame you if there is too much pain to start with. Sometimes I feel like you keeping me half dead, inside my head. To be honest, I can see I'm not the girl whom I should be. It’s how you wanted it to be, it’s like you’re playing a joke on me, and am I losing a friend.. in the end? 

Aprovechando que está aqui..
Tenemos esa inquietud de aprender cosas nuevas..
Estar inquieto por no sentir el dolor..

Making the most of being here. 
We have the need to learn new things. 
To feel restless so not to feel the pain..

Quoting from Lord Byron's Letter to his Beloved Caroline:

"..God knows I wish you happy, & when I quit you, or rather 
when you from a sense of duty to your husband & mother 
quit me, you shall acknowledge the truth of what I again 
promise & vow, that no other in word or deed shall ever 
hold the place in my affection which is & shall be most 
sacred to you, till I am nothing."

My heart would like to utter the same words and I want to thank our Lord Jesus Christ for letting me virtually meet you and become a part of my life. If ever the saddest moment comes that I quit you, always hold on to Jesus Christ because He will certainly comfort you to replace a lost place of me in your heart. If you will then fall in love to another woman, may you keep that love, nourish with constant communication and culture it with sweetness so you won't feel any pain anymore. All my prayers are here in my heart. Take care and God bless us all.





Posted:January 10, 2012 16:39
This was taken from my other journal bank on another microblogpage which will shutdown soon. It is still hard to compose notes in English language. :(


My K-Love

Whom have I in heaven but YOU? And earth has nothing I desire, besides YOU. My flesh and my heart may fail, But GOD is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.. ~~ Psalm 73:25- 26. 
하늘에서는 주 외에 누가 내게 있으리요 땅에서는 주 밖에 나의 사모할 자 없나이다. 내 육체와 마음은 쇠잔하나 하나님은 내 마음의 반석이시요 영원한 분깃이시라. (시편 73:25-26)

I learned about this Christian radio station when I was in the US and I've been listening to it even when I am here in my home country-The Philippines. What I love most about the USA is the fact/truth that a very huge percentage of the people there are believers. They have that big faith in Christ Jesus. Christianity in my country came from the Spaniards and Americans and how they value their faith is astounding


For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of GOD, which is in Christ Jesus our LORD. (Romans 8:38-39 KJV)

PRINCETON, NJ -- The large majority of Americans -- 77% of the adult population -- identify with a Christian religion, including 52% who are Protestants or some other non-Catholic Christian religion, 23% who are Catholic, and 2% who affiliate with the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Another 18% of Americans do not have an explicit religious identity and 5% identify with a non-Christian religion.


The United States remains a largely Christian nation. I always pray that every faith and every heart which grows deeper for Christ in many countries won't fall towards a demise. T______T 



Real Christian Faith

There are times where it is just you and Jesus who are talking in prayer. You are keeping Him busy hearing/listening to your summons, gratitude, and excitement over things that happened or have happened. The blogpage link below speaks well of me too as if like a prayer. :) It is very well said..as if she's telling Jesus about what kind of situation she's going through but her goal is to get the message across young people's mind. The author communicate clearly and compellingly with great composure, and her message was sent clearly. It is undeniable that a reality like this is knocking on us. 

I can't help but to commend the author's write-up for this certainty and truth. GOD is the ultimate navigator of the steering wheel of a Christian woman's life. A woman of faith is not really just waiting in vain but is walking closer to GOD while He is busy planning great things for her future.

1 Samuel 16:7
7 But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height,
for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at.
People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”

Proverbs 31:30
30 Charm can be deceiving,
    and beauty fades away,
but a woman
who honors the Lord
    deserves to be praised.

Indeed! Worth a read in its entirety. Click here:
http://www.writerscarnival.ca/peek-into-a-womans-heart-1-faith-is-like-a-tattoo-you-cant-borrow-mine-so-get-your-own/


Home-Cooked Foods

When I was living far far away from my family last 2011 to 2013, I learned so much about eating survival. Since the cost of dining out will put my pocket in despair, I decided to cook for myself for breakfast, lunch and dinner/supper. I admit I seldom visited fast-food chains, well just because I wanted to save more penny. hehe.. I went to several restaurants though and I will tell that they have superb servings plus the food is really great. We will say in Tagalog that the food serving is really "pang-dalawang tao" (a food serving is for two average-eaters).

What I like most about those foods I've savored were the "SALADS"! I Loooooove veggies a lot and it's so mouth-watering when they are mixed with those pecans, spinach, and blue cheese!! (missing the food in the cafeteria :|) I always think about the "burrito bowl" I had in NY, MA, and NH and the quesadillas. I've also had a very nice co-worker who will let me try some frozen-prepared foods. Those are new to me because we do not have much of frozen ready-to-eat foods in our country. The pre-packed food, I know how some of those were made by watching TV.They taste better but I think will still stick to home-cooked food more unless I have no time to prepare my food. 

I am not a chef, thus my cooked food won't taste good for the pro but I can follow cooking vids carefully to give the delicious treat a try. Some of those I cooked were adobo and mechado. Adobo variety has a base ingredient called "soy sauce" which typical American grocery store don't have (I was only able to buy from the Asian section).  Mechado type of viands are prepared mainly with tomato sauce, which is the major ingredient. 

        
                                                                                Adobong Pusit (Squid)

                  

"Beef Mechado"

Cooking Procedure:
1. Heat cooking oil in a pan then saute the garlic and onion.
2. Put-in the beef and saute for about 3 minutes or until color turns light brown

3. Add the tomato sauce and water then simmer until the meat is tender. Add water as needed.
4. Add the soy sauce, ground black pepper, lemon rind, laurel leaves, cummin, paprika and salt then simmer until excess liquid evaporates
5. Put-in the potatoes and cook until the potatoes are soft (about 15 to 25 minutes)
6. Place in a serving plate then serve hot with rice. Share and Enjoy!










Adobong Manok sa Gata (Coconut Milk Chicken Adobo)

My kid said she can't get enough of mama's chicken adobo [but this photo does not look presentable though :( ] It is every mother's goal and duty to make sure that we cook what our kid(s)s like(s) so they/he/she will eat a lot.

Ingredients:
• 1 lb. chicken, cut into serving pieces
• 1/3 cup white vinegar
• 2 to 3 tbsp. soy sauce
• 2 tbsp. crushed garlic
• salt to taste
• 1/4 tsp. pepper (or 1 tsp. peppercorn)
•  water
• 3/4 cup coconut milk
• chili pepper
• 1 tbsp. oil



Cooking Procedure:
1. In a deep skillet, brown chicken in oil.
2. Combine vinegar, soy sauce, garlic, salt (to taste) and pepper (or peppercorn). Stir to blend and then add into the brown chicken.
3. Bring to a boil. Lower the heat and allow simmering uncovered for about 10 minutes. If the sauce is reduced add about 1/2 cup water.
4. Cover and continue simmering until chicken is tender. Pour coconut milk and add the chili pepper.
5. Cook for another few more minutes to thicken the sauce.
6. Remove from heat. Transfer into a serving dish and serve hot.

The Philippine's Language - Tagalog

Thank you - Salamat or Salamat po (formal) "po" is an honorific
Where are you? - Nasaan ka?
How are you? - Kumusta ka?
Hi! Good morning!- Magandang Umaga!
Yes/No - Oo/Hindi or Opo/Hindi po
Good evening!- Magandang Gabi!
Good afternoon - Magandang Hapon!
I'm fine, thanks!-Mabuti naman, Salamat!
And you? -At ikaw?
Thank you (very much)! Maraming Salamat!
You're welcome! (for "thank you") - Walang anuman.
Hey! Friend!-Kaibigan!
What's new? - Anong bago?
Nothing much- Wala naman
See you later! Sa muling pagkikita!
Good bye - Paalam! 
I love you! - Mahal Kita! (This is the most common way of saying 'I Love You.' This phrase can be used with anyone, from your wife to your grandfather.)
How much is this? - Magkano ito?
Happy Birthday! - Maligayang Bati!
Take care! - Ingat ka!
What's your name? - Ano po ang pangalan nila? (frm) Anong pangalan mo? (inf)
My name is ______ . Ako si ______ .   Ang pangalan ko ay si _______. (literal
Pleased to meet you - Kinagagalak kong makilala ka
I don't know - Hindi ko alam. (informal)   Hindi ko po alam. (formal)
How old are you? - Ilang taon ka na?
Where are you from? - Taga saan ka? (Tah-gah sah-ahn kah?)
Where do you live? - Saan ka nakatira?
Where have you been? - Saan ka galing? (often used rhetorically)
Where are you going? - Saan ka pupunta? (Sah-ahn kah poo-poon-tah?)
Can you accompany me to _____?- Pwede mo ba akong samahan sa _____?
Can you take me to _____ ? - Pwede mo ba akong dalhin sa _____ ?
What is your work? - Anong trabaho mo? 
I'm sorry. - Paumanhin/Sorry

A Success, A New Hope!

After battling tremendously with several re-installations, several re-configurations, several RAID and disk partitioning, and after many hours of "saying" what to do?", how to do it? .. finally, it's over and we won! It is truly another big achievement for me to become a part of this group of enthusiast of our company's new proprietary product. Virtualization is common nowadays and I really enjoyed the moments of finding thoughts trying to figure out what we were doing wrong. I asked GOD to give us a way to know these configuration stuff without a need for extensive mentoring sessions. GOD said, "I will let you share with the knowledge I gave to your co-employees who are staying four floor levels down the building!" In short, we had a one hour classroom mentoring and brainstorming performed with some of our test engineering folks. :) 

      

Cold temperature every night these days...


What we learned from this brainstorming really helped us a lot and it answered our perplexing over an initially uncooperative setup. I can feel the self-ordained pressure but the victory is on me because of the LORD JESUS CHRIST! I am also thankful to a co-worker who helped me move forward. It is a new venture, a great learning which I would like to share with others next week. Help me LORD to create a new study material for my co-employees as an echo-training is needed to be conducted. I am happy to learn with them and to share what I have achieved in my career. I am so grateful to GOD for all the things He let me experienced, for all the wonderful people I met along this great journey and I am looking forward to making things happen for others as well. :) 



Today is a happy day! Oh! A so happy day!!
                                                                                     

The Mandatory ID :(

"And he causeth all, both small and great, rich and poor, free and bond, to receive a mark in their right hand, or in their foreheads: And that no man might buy or sell, save he that had the mark, or the name of the beast, or the number of his name. Here is wisdom. Let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast: for it is the number of a man; and his number is Six hundred threescore and six."  -Revelation 13:16-18

Radio-frequency identification (RFID) is the wireless non-contact use of radio-frequency electromagnetic fields to transfer data, for the purposes of automatically identifying and tracking tags attached to objects. The tags contain electronically stored information. Some tags are powered by and read at short ranges (a few meters) via magnetic fields (electromagnetic induction), and then act as a passive transponder to emit microwaves or UHF radio waves (i.e., electromagnetic radiation at high frequencies). Others use a local power source such as a battery, and may operate at hundreds of meters. Unlike a bar code, the tag does not necessarily need to be within line of sight of the reader, and may be embedded in the tracked object.

RFID tags are used in many industries. An RFID tag attached to an automobile during production can be used to track its progress through the assembly line. Pharmaceuticals can be tracked through warehouses. Livestock and pets may have tags injected, allowing positive identification of the animal. On off-shore oil and gas platforms, RFID tags are worn by personnel as a safety measure, allowing them to be located 24 hours a day and to be quickly found in emergencies.

Since RFID tags can be attached to clothing, possessions, or even implanted within people, the possibility of reading personally-linked information without consent has raised privacy concerns.

European babies are the first to get the RFID chip from May 2014. I am a little baffled though why this new tiny invention has to go inside a human's body. RFID can control or can be controlled. What lies ahead of this super-invention is unfathomable. One thing is sure though, RFID chip can control the brain faster than the blink of an eye. I don't feel great about this. People must prepare and be aware that something NOT GOOD, that something people have not experienced before is going to happen soon. 


                                                                    [not my photo]

                                                                   [not my photo]



Student Mode Activated

I admit I was lacking. I did not strive harder to do this training or simply I forget it purposely. I would say indeed, and definitely not true. I love anything about computers, networking and troubleshooting, thus I won't intentionally leave the books inside the box. I needed to complete my online training until March of this year and I have to do it fast. It is like I am running out of time. My sincerest apologies to my manager in Bradenton that I was so slacking on this one. I should have given more time and yet I just let it pass by. This scenario is a scene in my college days where you will feel that it is always a cramming day. You won't do anything but just face your books, hold hands with your techpen, become friends with your notebook and just simply live your schooling world with them. I think somehow, I need to become a college student again. I would say, "DO NOT DISTURB" in my room or in our room. Anyhow, I must do this because like I said, I do love the topics of this online training. All I can say is OH help me LORD, to finish them on time and that I will be able to learn a lot to apply them in my work. 

-student mode activated starting today :)


     Ayala, Makati City, Metro Manila
                February 4, 2014